What do I do now??

Utterly confused. That’s the state I’m always in. Always wondering what the hell should i do now! Never get answers. Just this question. Just me. Nothing to do. Nowhere to go. Nothing to wish. Nothing to know. No directions, no targets. No ambition, no desires. For I know, all that I wish, are things that aren’t meant for me to have. And all that I will have, aren’t things that I do want to have.

Cometh Again A Summer Tranquil

It means – the boring days are back! And if you’re not sleeping during the day, all you can hear is the fan spinning over you and pulling you peacefully into slumber. If you happen to be outside, you’d be able to spot a few unwilling souls being made to stand outside for some petty reason while all they’d be wanting would be a nice little nap underneath the somnolescent fan.

What is the best time to write up a blog???

I always have been wishing that I should have a nicely maintained blog site, just like many of my friends.And that’s da reason I log on to it everytime hoping to type down something or the other on whatever shit I’m thinking about! But all that happens is nothing. I end up writing something that needs not be thought about or cared for – in a word, it’s called bullshit!!
 
This time when i thought of fillin this empty space once again, I just tried to remember how frequently did I plan of typing down something but didn’t do anything.It was just then that I could infer it was only the time i felt too bored that I wanted to pass the time bloggin out here.And that’s exactly what i think is all of you do.Is it not so???
 
After all when you are having a really great time, why would you sit back alone and recall the bygones, blame the system, curse your life!!!Wouldn’t you better hang on doing something that makes you feel alive????

Afraid of loneliness

Solitude is one great thing that gives you the time to ponder to the keenest of levels over the most intricate issues, thereby fabricating the most honoured of ideals. Most of the world’s dignitories and pace-setters have had thier times in confinement – be it forced or wishful – where they were able to develop and herald the ideals within themselves which were to be used to ignite the minds of the masses and fuel the blazes among them.
 
Hey did you think i’ve written some speech here on "Mastermind Mentality". Don’t just worry I’m coming back to me.
 
I am no great man.I am just me.But still everyone can be compared to someone great.Afterall, those who happend to enjoy such exalted states in the human society too were once someone general.
 
What I want to say is …… when i happened to be at home .. i used to think a lot upon anything …. and infact everything… be it somethin related to me or to poor people dying somewhere in some African jungle……. from Turkish earthquakes to American air shellings of Afghainistan ……whatever……… i had a global perspective.. but things appear to have changed … a great deal …. i’m not the same as i was ….
 
I really have changed …. totally unaware of whether it’s of the slightest use to me !!!!
 
At present, i can not even dare to think of being alone. Always seen in a group , talking all the shit possible , wasting my time in all feasible methods …. going out for something , jumping out of the class havin a walk , getting some important document signed , anything the work might be … i always need someone or the other to be there by my side … to talk to me …n to help me out of any trouble i land into..
 
I’m very greatful to the wonderful gang i’ve been able to build up here …. who always have some or the other issue to put forth you n make you never feel jobless …. who always have something really hot and happening to be done … no matter how bad the time be ..
 
 
But the thing that matters the most for me is the fact that at times you have to take decisions that make you walk all alone in your life. And with my present condition , i don’t think it is at all possible for me to do so … not even in the farthest of my dreams do i dare to do that …. 

The Story of My Life – An autobiography

Life, though seems to be small an often uneventful (  well this is what I often felt ), isn’t actually that way. It’s a lot different. Whatever I’ve learnt till date has been because of the things that happened to come up into my life and that’s the reason I’m gonna write up my biography.
 
Well I’m well aware of the fact that I’m not that kindda person whose biography someone would like to read; but it really does not matter for me. I’ll do that for my own practise-my typing practise actually!!!
 
So all you guys and galz hold your breaths.The most rocking and ****ing biography is about to arrive here for you.It’s the nineteenth day of August 2006 that I’ve decided to type up my whole life and present it before all of you-stark and true. I myself am not aware how long I’ll take to complete this but I hope it’ll get completed within the nxt 10 yrs….I guess so!!!
 
Signing of for now…….will come back again to finally start my biography…till then…bb’byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!